I never thought words like "Happy" "inspiring" " Motivating" "positive" would be words used to describe me. But they are. These are what people tell me they think of me. It wasn't always this way.
You see, 15 or so years ago I was damaged goods (aren't we all). Years of believing what others said about me really took its toll. I was a 23 year old, divorced single mom. Wow. THAT was a hard pill to swallow. I didn't want a broken home for my daughter. Yet, it happened, and I had to deal with the aftermath of that. It was hard. I didn't feel grown up enough for this job, yet it was mine! I figured it out, because I've always been a figurerouterer. <Yeah, I know it's not a real word, but I like it and it's fun to say>
I was not interested in boys at all, and was just working (as a bartender) and taking care of my daughter.... when.... it happened. My now husband moved in next door. God knew what I needed more so then I did. He brought me my best friend, and soulmate.
My dear husband had to work through many issues I was having. I had severe anxiety and was on medication. I also had battled with bouts of depression. He stuck with me through the suck. Then he really embraced the suck when I got diagnosed with post partum psychosis after our daughter was born. That took one heck of an amazing man to stand by me through that. It was tough, on both of us. But, we made it through.
One of the things that didn't make it through as well, was my body. When we met, I was about 110lbs (I'm only 5'1"). After having our amazing daughter, I had a hard time losing any weight. A REAL HARD TIME. I did manage to lose some, but not near all of it before I was pregnant with baby #3.
As you can imagine, 3 babies.... all born via C-Section, left my body feeling less than stellar.
It was at this time, I hit a point. That point was when I stepped on the scale and saw that my "everyday weight" was the same as my "delivery weight" from my 1st pregnancy. I KNEW I had to do something. I couldn't even climb a flight of stairs without being out of breath. I was never going to make it to seeing grandkids born if I kept up like this. SO, I changed things.
I wasn't sure exactly what to do, but I knew I needed to do something! I sure as heck wasn't going to take my feeling as fat as ever ass to the gym. I am as uncoordinated as they come. Me + Zumba = Disaster. I also didn't want to just do the elliptical or something, most of the girls on those always look like super models (ok, maybe I needed to find a new gym? Seriously though, they did). Weights, oh lord no. I could hardly carry the groceries up the stairs. How was I going to lift? I knew nothing about that! Ok, so maybe I was also just feeling so bad about my weight & how I looked and I was embarrassed. I knew if I went to the gym, I'd feel like everyone was watching me. Even if they weren't. That would not be fun. So, I needed to do something.... but not going to the gym.
What was I going to do...?
I found a program, and did it at home. This was perfect! Fitness professionals in my living room! I didn't have to leave the house or even get dressed! Plus, It helped me lose quite a bit of weight.
You can check out that part of my story here -
It worked! It changed my life. I learned how to eat clean. I learned how to love my body at every stage. I learned how to encourage others in their journey. Most importantly, I've kept most all of it off (I do fluctuate 5-10lbs, I'm Human!) This is how my business was born. It all started with me, working on me first.
A huge part of making these changes in my life, is I am SO MUCH happier now. My glass is always half full. I am super outgoing, and I love to share happy! Now let me tell you about the New & Improved me:
I Love:
All things Glittery
Tacos
High Heels
Yoga Pants
Food
Handbags
Gardening
Trying to craft/sew
Creating #pinterestfail
My kids
My Husband (I mean, 13 years. He deserves so much more than a blip on my blog)
I could seriously go on and on.
Don't worry, I won't bore you with that. :) I just wanted to give you an idea of where I came from, and how I transformed into the awesome version of me now! If you are reading this, and you are thinking to yourself "This sounds just like me" - Please reach out to me. Email me and let's talk. I want to help you!
I hope you enjoy my blog, and my ramblings! Be sure to find me and follow me on all my social media channels too.
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